I'm trying so hard to be a nice person, but everytime something nice happens, there isn't really any feelings I can sense, apathetic without emotions isn't helping and the murderous sometimes poker face gaze is definitely not helpful, answers on how to look approachable would be welcome, I've had anxiety before, fascinating experience, afterwards, which is right now, I don't feel anything terrible, but I can't feel the good either, I don't know if that's a good thing, but it's better than the good old days of utter despair, I've been seeing a therapist regularly for the past months, they worked okay, everything seems strange, like a bubble that's been popped, how do people fuction like normal human beings? All is slightly messy, different, if that makes sense..I just can't feel anything, suicide seemed like the best option back then, but now, I'm trying, I'm trying so hard, I'm also not doing anything, well I still want to die, but I'm not doing it, I just can't feel anything