I’m practically freaking out right now because I’m having a revelation of sorts. Randomly, I just decided to take an ADHD quiz thing because I was bored, and as it progressed the questions started to scare me. I feel like it matches me perfectly.

Ever since middle school my life’s been... messy I guess. Not horrible really, but I always questioned if maybe I had anxiety or some shit because I overthink everything way too much. One thought would always lead to another and this led to horrible anxiety, so I thought that I might have GAD or something. I think now I know what it is though.

One of the questions on the quiz was like, “doesn’t want to do things that require mental exhaustion” or some shit, but “still able to get completely engrossed in stuff.” This matches me so much. Whenever I find something I like, I surround myself with it almost to obsession, but I fucking despise school work and will always procrastinate to the last second. This is valid for other shit as well. Then there’s not paying attention. Check. If a conversation or teacher is boring me, I’ll let my mind wander. Next up is interruptions, check, then disorganization, check, forgetting shit, check, then being talkative, check. Now I’m not the most extroverted person, but if I’m around good people and I start talking, I don’t ever stop to the point where some people find me annoying. Then there’s the whole fidgeting thing, I used to think that I don’t do this at all, but now I realize I might. If I’m put in a situation that’s boring, even if I’m not supposed to I will browse my phone endlessly or check reddit exhaustingly. Even if I’m just sitting down talking to someone, I’ll constantly take sips of my drink, even if it’s basically empty.

And then the cherry on the cake, ADHD meds didn’t make me how I thought they would. As you can probably tell from my username, I partake in drugs every once in awhile, and idk how this place views that and I’m sorry if it’s not viewed kindly but right now I’m just looking for help. Point is, I took 60mg of Vyvanse expecting to become speedy and talkative out my ass. Instead I felt almost like I didn’t want to talk, and I was almost relaxed. I was confused as fuck but didn’t question it because I smoked a lot of bud. Still was fun though, music was great, body felt great, and I ended up getting in a good enough mood that I started talking out my ass again despite that horrid dry mouth.

I just don’t know. I feel like I’m going crazy thinking about this now. I never expected this to line up so much, and I don’t even know how I would bring this up to my family. I’m terrified, please give me any advice, it’s all appreciated. Do you think I have ADHD? Where should I move from here? I don’t want to be misdiagnosed and I’m worried about how my family will respond.

TLDR: Took dumb ADHD quiz, symptoms lined up a fuck ton, idk what to do.