I have this feeling that effects my life and transforms my house into somewhere I don't feel safe.

It started a few months ago. I felt uncomfortable around the landlord who lives with us. I started avoiding him. Using the kitchen after I knew he'd been.

But things escalated and whenever he was in the house I wouldn't use the kitchen or the toilet. Being in either of these rooms gave me an overwhelming feeling of being exposed and vulnerable.

Sometimes I just want to cook a meal but the fear overwhelms me. I can't stay in the kitchen for that long, what if he comes back. But the only thing I'm avoiding is him as a person. He hasn't done anything bad to me.

I've been referred for CBT but I don't know if this is something I'll ever be able to fix. I'm fucking sick of not being able to function in my house. I'm tired of people saying I need to expose myself to the situation to get better. I know that but it's so hard. I hate having mental illness I swear to God I'm done with it. I can't even afford to move out. I'm tired because this has gone on for so long and every week I tell my doctor there are no improvements.

Edit: Had psychosis for 2 and a half years. In a depressive/angry spell now.