i have repressed flashbacks. medications have helped me cope with several obsessions and cured my hypochondria, however my flashbacks still remain persistent, maldaptive, and impairing. these cause excessive fixation on my thoughts which just sinks my OCD hole even more deeper leaving me to to feel completely drained and depressed. i wish i could just accept the feeling without fighting it
ill admit i have a bad case of baby fever, but his statement was kind of taking it too far.
he said “if you had a sex drive at all, i think you’d be a pedophile.” i was really taken back by this, so i tried to defend myself by saying “i’d never hurt a child” and his response was “well that’s what most pedos think anyway - they think they’re protecting the kid or something”.
now i feel really bad for thinking kids are cute and i avoid telling him about funny things i see little kids do at the library where i work. it’s kind of getting in my head and i don’t know what to do.
edit: i’m 20/f
I (f20) get so depressed whenever I see females from porn, I've been trying to play it off cool for so long but it sucks so bad. It plays up with my bipolar and I get all these paranoid thoughts, it's crazy. Legit had to unsub even from all my nsfw reddit subs.
Maybe it's a sense of jealousy or that I don't feel good enough, especially when people close to me look at that kind of stuff.
So any tips on how to get over this feeling? it's getting kind of ridiculous.
I couldn't move really. Not because anything was paralizing me but because it took to much effort. To much motivation. It's not worth it to move. My legs get heavy and it feels like I'm physically paralyzed even though I know I'm not. I know it's mental because it usually happens when I don't want to do something. It hurts to make myself move. I just want to lay still. When I feel well and want something I can move fine but when I'm called on for chores or I'm having a really bad day mentally everything weighs a ton and I can't make myself speak even though nothing's holding me back.
Does anyone know what this is? I have diagnosed OCD, I'm not diagnosed for depression but it's pretty blatently obvious I have it, and it's possible I may have ADD but that's just a possibility, I haven't been diagnosed on that.
When I started my freshman year of college, I met a guy who would be my tutor for chemistry. I never really spoke to him outside of our sessions, and I developed a crush on him. For some reason I started feeling really shy around him anytime I saw him and ultimately had this like-hate relationship with him in my mind: on the one hand, he was someone who I could go to for help in chemistry, but what I hated about him was how intelligent and how charismatic he was to other people, especially females (I'm an openly gay male).
I'm now at a point where I've started picturing these scenarios in which I hurt him physically (I'd rather not describe these fantasies, but they're pretty graphic and involve a knife or a gun). Last night I dreamt that he was attacked by a group of people from my school and it was oddly satisfying. In the dream I vividly recall me seeing him being attacked and asking him if he needed me to help him get medical attention. In the dream I can remember feeling extremely devastated at how much pain he was in. I can't explain why I have mixed feelings of liking and hating toward him.
Someone please help me understand my feelings. Is there a subconscious motive behind these thoughts that I'm not aware of? Additionally, if you'd like anymore details regarding my relationship to him or my thoughts, please go ahead and ask.
Hey, hello.
Since a month or so, certain things looks weird when i look at them, like they're wrong. I don't know how to describe this.
Im taking Prozac (20mg) and risperidone (1mg) the psychiatrist said that im just "A little depressed" but i dont buy that since he often asks me if i hear voices or feel like im being followed or something.
Is this common or anything? should i tell him about it? Helpo ):
I am concerned about my wife. Over the last 18 months she's had several bouts of depression that have put her in bed for up to a week at a time. They seem to be getting more and more frequent. She's not suicidal, but she will self medicate (over taking lorazipan so that she's slurring her words or muttering strangely to our children), sleep for 20 hours a day and lash out at me over my concern for her well being. She's currently the patient of a psychopharmacologist who doesn't so much treat my wife as medicate her. My wife is unwillingly to talk to a therapist despite my pleadings. We have 2 children and the last thing I want to do is break up our family over this. It's a violation of her privacy if I go around her back and let her psychopharmacologist know what's happening and ask for their help, I'm just not sure what else to do. I feel like I'm trying to lead my partner to water, but she's determined to buck and bite me. Any advice at all would be welcome. Thank you.
